My Dream Semester

I made a decision. For the first time in 17 years, I will not be in school next year. I cannot begin to describe how relieved I am right now. Someone once said, "God only gives you enough time for what He wants you to do." I've struggled this year more than ever with stress, anxiety, doubt, and busyness. I hate that god. I hate it. Busyness is at war against Christians and is winning. Long have I asked God what it was that didn't fit his agenda for me. The more time that past, the more I realized how much of my "doing" life didn't fit his agenda, or least not the agenda Jesus had. But all of that aside, I knew in my heart that I was going down the path of obligation, and it needed to stop. Seminary. It negatively affected my finances, my ministry, my health, and my already weakened relationship with Christ, which then affects everything else. Was it a mistake? No. It was a learning experience, and a good one. I did something because I thought I had to, and not because it was wise and best for me. I have been going to bed this week by 10:00pm each night because of my health, securing at least 8 hours of sleep. I am feeling the best I've felt in a long time. I don't know how I missed it, but my sister shares my health condition, and she told me that a lack of sleep makes it worse. I learned the hard way. I have a million paths laid out before me, which will I choose? I don't know, but I'll take another step forward. Borrowing from Toby's example, I want to become the man worth killing. It won't be the path of least resistance. So what does God want from me? He wants me. He wants my heart. He wants me to become like Jesus. How will this happen? I don't know, but I will be ready. I'm restructuring priorities though, that's for sure. Isn't life amazing?